paralysed

The page is blank
the edges
unspoken of.

mute

Letters forming
words forming
sentences forming
a quiet conversation
between me
and the person I can’t speak to.

And yet there is
a lot to say
before it’s all
too late

But still,
the page is blank
the edges
unspoken of.

mute

3 years of love

Words are missing

For I don’t want to write

something I’ve written before

I could write I love you more

Now

Than when I first met you

I don’t miss all the fun

and excitement we had

At the start

Because it’s even more fun

and exciting right now

Words are missing

To let you know

My love for you

Is never ending

To let you know

I can only see my future

Together with you

Words are missing

To let you truly know

How much these past years

Mean to me

And how I hope

We’ll have many

More years to come

All I can say

Is that I love you

Immensely

And how I never

Ever

Want to let you go

Future vs Past

I wanted it to work out

So badly

But it didn’t

And now I could kick myself

For not trying hard enough

I tried

And tried

And I tried it some more

But I couldn’t succeed

And now everything is going to change

A new environment

A new beginning

A new future

Leaving everything behind

That I don’t want to leave

Leaving everyone behind

That I don’t want to leave

Because I think the past was

So much better

Even though I can’t

Really know that yet

But my past has you in it

So it must be

Better

Please Stay

I look around
And yet I don’t see anything
I keep on staring
In the darkness
Even my dreams
Aren’t safe anymore
Death is always around
I’m afraid
Did I tell you enough
How much I love you?
I don’t understand
Why you have to die
We were going to do
So much together
Celebrate birthday’s
Celebrate New Year
You promised me
We’d dance together
At my wedding
Am I selfish
For wanting you to stay?
I can’t help it
I cry all the time
I can barely sleep
For I keep on staring
Into the darkness
Please stay!
I need you
I Love You

Return to me

A kiss goodbye

I watch you

Walk away

I see

How you

Disappear in the crowd

Everything turns

To black

A hopeful feeling

Awaiting

Your return

Waiting for the sun

That’ll rise

And the night

Will fade away

As my blindness

Will fade

When you

Come back to me

Stars

I’m wandering

Outside

Stars are shining

Bright

They are

Little diamonds

In the sky

I wander

I wonder

When did my life

Become so complicated?

It all used to be

So simple

Childlike innocent

Not a single worry

On my mind

And now

I’m afraid

I grew up

And noticed

All the cruel things

That happen in this world

If I could only be a star

In the sky

Shining bright

Like a little diamond

There for everyone to gaze upon

And make them wonder

Maybe this world isn’t such a bad place after all

We’re Friends?

Sometimes I think

You really don’t like me

Because I get the feeling

That you would have forgotten me

If I hadn’t reminded you I exist

But we are friends

Aren’t we?

I mean

I tell you everything

And you tell me everything

I think

And I like you

Don’t you like me?

You see

I may be a big girl on the outside

But I’m still little and insecure on the inside